01.25.09
oh gosh! a nightmare?
lately i really dun know why, bad dream haunted myself. this morning, after fajr (subuh) prayer, i fell asleep. quite sleepy though. i dreamt something bad thing happened to me. even i dun remember exactly what happened in my dream, i just wanna tell roughly.
here the story is;i went back home, in malaysia n met up with my family. what surprisingly happened is my family became distant n cold to me. (T_T) my dad scolded me because some reasons n my grandma really hated me. they wanna go away, n leave me alone. oh, come on man. what i’d done, huh?. i’m just came back from japan, dad. at that time, what came cross to my mind is: am i a bad son? become rude to family n so on. then, i woke up ’cause the handphone rang n i’d to answer it. actually i wanna continue sleeping, of course, to know the end of the story. hehehe… (what the heck?)
i’d also a bad dream yesterday, but i dun remember when it happened; b4 or after the subuh prayer. huhu.. i met with my younger sister in the dream. i was shocked at that time. my sister changed absolutely; became an elegant girl n money is on tip of fingers. may be it’s sound cool right? but, what made me tension is she became arrogant n lazy (like me? no no no…) >_< i tried to advise, even i’d scold her, to become good girl++ but, she make dunno jer… oh gosh, what happened to u? i really wanna cry at that time; is that ’cause of me? not a good bro, always nice to siblings, take care each others.
何だよ。。（－.ー；）
oh, i dunno what really happened to me. may be God wanna show n tell me something, or just a dream. i hope the second one; effect of exam’s pressure though. or may be i’m not a good guy enough. should think n reflect myself back.
12.02.08
devil besides you
hello guyz.
it’s been a long time for me to write a post here. act i wanna write about this topic last week, but, well u know me, a little bit busy n can’t manage my time well…hehehe
last two weeks, if i’m not mistaken, coz i don’t remember exactly when, my frenz n i went to play bowling. i’m not really expert in this field like the rests. (-.-) but, on that day, my frenz taught the proper n better way in playing bowling, besides gave me warm supports. :”> i didn’t expect it. now u see, how popular am i..hahaha (oh, what the heck..? )
at that time, what came to my mind is who’s really my rival is. is that ‘them’ or ‘myself’? then, i reflect myself n think, what always make me feel fear n nervous, n that’s myself alone. the ‘dark-site’ of myself :>)
i realize that the thing i should overcome is to deal with this ‘devil’ besides me..huhu. the devil that ruins myself, spoils my confidence n spirit. that devil sometimes make me confuse; is what i did right or not?, should i do like this?, was i wrong? n so on.
so, i should deal with this devil well, so that i don’t be cheated n played fools with him anymore…(~0~) i must think positive what am i going to do n i had done. if what i’d done is right, it’s a credit to me though. if not, may be God wanna show me something, coz everybody did mistakes. may be fears in myself try to deny my ability or drag me its goodness, who knows?
don’t u think so?
