10.26.09
biarpun lambat..^^
hmm…dh nk msk subuh baru le nk update. tp xpe lah, sbb dh berjaga mlm n baru je abis wat keje (yg x seberapa rasanya); update lah cket blog ni. hehe~
ari ni sngt sejuk.(info: suhu hari ni lbh kurng 15°c je pun) bgn je, rsa mls2. mls tul nk mndi. lastly, wat kptsn mndi ptg karang. ngeh3. fon ♥family♥ jap; sembang ngan mak, abah n adik. huhu…syok le smbg2 sbb rsa mls tul nk wat apa2 pun ari ni @_@ seronok lak dgr adik aku citer pengalaman dia g camping.
mlm lak wat le kerja2 sedikit; urusan surat-menyurat tuk penubuhan kelab pljr malaysia meiji university. x bnyk sngt pun; cuma otak aku ni ‘agak’ lembap nk pk ayat dlm nihongo. tensen tul. x kuar ayat2 nihongo yg power; bunpo (grammar) 1kyu & 2kyu (1st level & 2nd level) yg blaja dlu x ingt lngsung. >_< agak lmbt le keje tu jadinyer sbb nk susun ayat, plus nk cari mksd perkataan. dh wat elok, rsa x puas ati lak..ubah blk smpai puas ati. /(-_-”) wat le keje tu smpai nk msk subuh smbl dgr lagu & tgk tv. hehe..tp x pe, lps ni serahkan pd yg pakar tuk check. ngee~
tmbh2, ari ni rsa gembira sngt sbb dpt hadiah. \(^0^)/nk tau ape…
jeng jeng jeng…
sapu tgn kita-kyusyu & album heartbreaker!!
hadiah ni drpd my best fren; zahir, yg g blayar ke kita-kyusyu n busan 2 mg lps. aq n housemate; mus’ab dpt sapu tgn tp aq dpt extra cket. ngeh3 (syok le tu..=p) iaitu cd g-dragon: heartbreaker. cho-ureshikatta~ can’t describe by words. over le plak.
dia ckp sbb cd tu cam unik n spesel (aq pun rsa cam2 gak), dia bli. tp bla dgr lagu2 dlm cd tu x kna lak dgn taste dia.
time chatting dgn dia ari tu; lps dia ‘mendarat’, dia ckp nk wish my besday..*shy2* bln lps tp nk wat camne x de rezeki; call x dpt. hehe..so dia ckp nk bg kat aku cd tu sbg hadiah besday, walaupun dh lebih sebulan besday aq berlalu. aku pula ad ckp yg minat lagu g-d tu..ape lg…besar tapak tgn, nyiru saya tadahkan ler.. hehe. lgpun, aq suka sngt lagu2 g-dragon dlm album tu, skali dgr ala2 eminem n gorillaz lak..bnyk lagu yg best2 cam:
- Heartbreaker
- Breathe
- Butterfly
- and so on…^^
ape2 pun…layan je~ 
kandungan dlm kotak cd tu...^_^
thanx again, zahir..kamsahamnida…komawoyo~
04.21.09
puzzled :(-_-”):
i just came back from english class at main campus; surugadai near ochanomizu station. i’ve to go there by train. really exhausted though, rite now. huhu…
there’re many things happened lately, in my life. i dunno whether it supposed to be or not. may be God has decided them happened n i dun notice what the gud things behind. what’s on earth i wanna talk about, huh? okey, back to the point. what’s happened in last week; n what’s going to happen this week too.
last week, the 1st ever lab session has begun, on thursday. we’d to decided which field of themes. at that time, i was speechless, n puzzled. had i thought wisely ’bout that? omG..i guess sensei is going to give some briefing about research n so on. i was wrong. he said;”if i delay time, u’all won’t think. so, it’s better for u decide now n u’ll work 4 it, i think.” sort of that. >_< so, i’ve no idea at that time, ’cause i’m confius either to take image processing (画像処理) or dna computing (DNAコンピュティング). at that time, i was really wanna run away 4 not thinking about that, or going back to past to think again. hehe…what’s the heck! then, i just said i wanna do image processing, as recommended by him. last month, i sent e-mail to sensei about the research themes n i wrote about image processing, since i’d no idea about dna computing. then, he suggested me to do research about sumthing related to image processing. i was in malaysia at that time, so it’s difficult to find references etc.
both of the fields seem interesting. dna computing is new field of my research lab, n preferred by sensei. on the other hand, image processing is quite hard; full of programming n sumthin like that. (-_-”) fortunately, for both of those research areas, i’ve malaysian sempai. ^^v
really hope so that what i’d chosen is right. gambaru shika nai…(?)
yesterday i’d seminar class – reading some english research papers, which related with the research theme. then, my turn came; to translate, n explain some of the words. at that moment, i dunno why; my english n japanese became like trash; going upside-down. ashamed 4 that. 
i supposed to understand what terms used in the paper, but i’ve no idea ’bout that. so, i really sorry 2 sensei, n my mates too.
this thursday, we’re going to write study proposal; about what we’re going to do 4 thesis in one whole year – sumthing like research plan. oh my~ it like a sudden to do sumthing in rush. so, i’m going to meet my team-mates tomorrow to discuss about that. hope so ideas will come out..=)
but, tomorrow i’ve also korean class. yeah..! learning new language, even i dunno i capable of that or not. at least, the lecturer is nice n said there’re no student fail in that subject yet. huhu~
i’m looking forward for everything in my life. haha~ going crazy already (?)
04.16.09
when sakura blossom….
just wanna drop something in my blog, since i dun update it 4 two weeks. really sorry 4 it (_ _) it’s not because i’m busy or what; just no idea 4 entry…huhu. btw, this post just mumbles from me, myself n i. plz 4give me if it sounds weird or meaningless.
sakura blossom in early april n around that time the school’s (n university’s too) term starts.
it’s about a year i’m in japan. it seems really fast, the time is. unexpected! even it was a year, i refuse to admit the fact. haha…what the heck i’m writing here? i dunno how to say it; it looks like i can’t say my one-year-experiences has mutured me. i still have no confidence about my future life. voices of afraid n worry are heard deep from my heart.what should i do next? my life path will be getting dull? oh no…i dun want it happen.
may be sometimes, i enjoy too much in this life. oh, we’re young! it’s youth time. seishun da. do i take granted 4 what i got? that’s why i do take easy. >_<
i’m always getting into confusion. is this correct? is that okay? 
n sometimes i think i’m a liar or hypocrite in my own life; seems i’m trapped by myself in others’ shadows. again, weird thing i write here though. are all my actions, till now, are correct? or just my act to promote myself n dun wanna hurt anybody.those worries n thought haunt my mind lately. i dunno what to say or decide to do. so, i just continue my life as usual, but at the same time try doing my best 4 anything i could. as well, hoping Allah s.w.t will help this nothing-good slave n let know what the best to do. huhu. ameen~
i really wanna start (or may be reset?) my daily life with brightness, even others feel not. hehe…;-)
01.31.09
day by day
today is my 1st day of spring break holiday. huhu…
while enjoy unmemorable dream, my hand-phone rang at 6 a.m. gosh, disturbing my private time! my pal called me; woke me up, to quickly get prepared n go to their place, for sure, subuh prayer first. at that time, it’s so chill n still raining out there. i really wanna continue sleeping. so i just said; “sorry, i dun wanna go. ’cause it’s raining heavily out there, dude” n then hang up. actually last night, my pals had planned to go to ichigo gari today’s morning n i agreed, but today i’d changed my mind. what the heck?
then, i woke up at noon. it’s too hard to get out of the futon. soooo cold n wind was still blowing strongly at out of my room. >_< this morning’s call crossed in my mind. i really sorry to them ’cause breaking the promise. it made me feel guilty. stupid i..
after preparing myself, i went to school, even today is holiday. i planned to have my lunch at syokudo (cafe) n wanna consult something about syukatsu (job-hunting) at キャリア支援センタ(carrier support center). but, what’s disappointing me is syokudo was closed n support center too. (-_-; ) then, i just ate some snacks, bought from convenience store, as reading some pamphlets about syukatsu at wide area, somewhere near the center. something written in those pamphlets dragged my eyes n mind. several seniors who’re interviewed in the pamphlets advise for not easily following what others do but think about what we wanna do. dun just concern about kind of job only, consider our private self too. even our surrounding encourage us to do so, what we wanna do n is that thing suit ourselves come first.
周りから刺激をうけることはいいですが、流されると「自分は何がやりたいんだろう」と、そもそもの部分に戻ってしまいます。
まずは自分を見つめ直すことが、就活の第一歩です。
those words made me think again about to do syukatsu. i dunno what to do yet, so i must rest my brain n think carefully; what i wanna do. if i wanna work, what kind of work. may be it’s too early for me to start job-hunting. huhu… hope what i’m going to do is true. must believe in myself. (^_^)
at about 4 p.m, i went back home n tidied up my one whole year notes. i dun wanna throw some of the notes, such a precious memory though, but i’ve to do so to make my bookshelf looks not too filthy. when i opened some old notes n glanced at my hand-writing. wow, my hand-writing was nicer than now. haha… grinned alone. but, what irritating me is i dun remember what i’d learned. i’d learned all of this? what’s this means? n some sort of it came out of mind. what a shamed…
at night, i just cooked instant noodles, to finish remained stock, for dinner. i’m quite lazy lately. no wonder ’cause exam was over. hihihi… had dinner while watching tv, n then called my family. then, i became bored. so, i went out to 7 eleven to buy some snack for supper 
n then ramble at bookstore, just looked aroud if there any nice book to read. i use to read tv guide book n fashion mag. but today, i found a magazine about ipod. really good n reasonable. i should buy it, but i dun want. haha..so i read over there n took note some useful links.
after half an hour i was there, i went back home n started writing this post (^^,) that was my story about 1st day of holiday. sound boring may be. wanna remind myself actually.
01.21.09
max pressure
i wanna write a little bit even i’m busying myself with exam study, may be i’m facing max (maximum) pressure? a few days left b4 exam while there’re a lot to study. well u-know. i really jealous with my frenz from other universities who had finished exam early. some of them don’t have any paper though. oh come on. (>_<) why i dun be like them, in the seventh heaven.hehe…
astaghfirullah…what did i say. i should realize may be what God planned is better than i thought. hope God will give me strength to face all the challenges. (^_^) what i’d been thought; everything had been planned by Him, so no need to worry. what the result for next week exam was determined by God earlier. hihi… just do the best for it.
i’m going to seat exam starting next monday with 電気電子応用数学2/applied maths for e&e 2, 電気機器学2/electric machines 2 (tuesday), システム工学/system engineering (thursday) n the killer paper; 物理学A/physics A on friday. i hope can manage well n dun let other stuff control myself e.g mood (advice to myself). i dunno either can finish study b4 the exam start or not. hope so can. be cool man. i’m cool right? haha…
talking about study for exam, i remember what my maths teacher said during i was in form 3, if i’m not mistaken. she asked what the purpose of our study? just exam or the knowledge i.e ilmu? the niat @ nawaitu our study for. omoidashichatta...huhu. she said to all members of my class at that time;
if u all study for exam, u just passed the exam (at that time pmr), then u’ll forget what u studied when u proceed to form 4 n so on. but, if ur niat @ nawaitu of ur study is for the ilmu thing, u’ll get the ilmu, or fortunately both, pass in the exam too.
oh, really thanx cikgu. i must reflect myself back; for what i study for. may be it’s not too little too late. huhu (-_-; )
yosh…gambarou!!
So, when you feel like hope is gone
look inside you and be strong
and you’ll finally see the truth
that a hero lies in you
cool enough? (^^,)
12.02.08
devil besides you
hello guyz.
it’s been a long time for me to write a post here. act i wanna write about this topic last week, but, well u know me, a little bit busy n can’t manage my time well…hehehe
last two weeks, if i’m not mistaken, coz i don’t remember exactly when, my frenz n i went to play bowling. i’m not really expert in this field like the rests. (-.-) but, on that day, my frenz taught the proper n better way in playing bowling, besides gave me warm supports. :”> i didn’t expect it. now u see, how popular am i..hahaha (oh, what the heck..? )
at that time, what came to my mind is who’s really my rival is. is that ‘them’ or ‘myself’? then, i reflect myself n think, what always make me feel fear n nervous, n that’s myself alone. the ‘dark-site’ of myself :>)
i realize that the thing i should overcome is to deal with this ‘devil’ besides me..huhu. the devil that ruins myself, spoils my confidence n spirit. that devil sometimes make me confuse; is what i did right or not?, should i do like this?, was i wrong? n so on.
so, i should deal with this devil well, so that i don’t be cheated n played fools with him anymore…(~0~) i must think positive what am i going to do n i had done. if what i’d done is right, it’s a credit to me though. if not, may be God wanna show me something, coz everybody did mistakes. may be fears in myself try to deny my ability or drag me its goodness, who knows?
don’t u think so?
