today is my 1st day of spring break holiday. huhu…

while enjoy unmemorable dream, my hand-phone rang at 6 a.m. gosh, disturbing my private time! my pal called me; woke me up, to quickly get prepared n go to their place, for sure, subuh prayer first. at that time, it’s so chill n still raining out there. i really wanna continue sleeping. so i just said; “sorry, i dun wanna go. ’cause it’s raining heavily out there, dude” n then hang up. actually last night, my pals had planned to go to ichigo gari today’s morning n i agreed, but today i’d changed my mind. what the heck?

then, i woke up at noon. it’s too hard to get out of the futon. soooo cold n wind was still blowing strongly at out of my room. >_< this morning’s call crossed in my mind. i really sorry to them ’cause breaking the promise. it made me feel guilty. stupid i..

after preparing myself, i went to school, even today is holiday. i planned to have my lunch at syokudo (cafe) n wanna consult something about syukatsu (job-hunting) at キャリア支援センタ(carrier support center). but, what’s disappointing me is syokudo was closed n support center too. (-_-; ) then, i just ate some snacks, bought from convenience store, as reading some pamphlets about syukatsu at wide area, somewhere near the center. something written in those pamphlets dragged my eyes n mind. several seniors who’re interviewed in the pamphlets advise for not easily following what others do but think about what we wanna do. dun just concern about kind of job only, consider our private self too. even our surrounding encourage us to do so, what we wanna do n is that thing suit ourselves come first.

周りから刺激をうけることはいいですが、流されると「自分は何がやりたいんだろう」と、そもそもの部分に戻ってしまいます。

まずは自分を見つめ直すことが、就活の第一歩です。

those words made me think again about to do syukatsu. i dunno what to do yet, so i must rest my brain n think carefully; what i wanna do. if i wanna work, what kind of work. may be it’s too early for me to start job-hunting. huhu… hope what i’m going to do is true. must believe in myself. (^_^)

at about 4 p.m, i went back home n tidied up my one whole year notes. i dun wanna throw some of the notes, such a precious memory though, but i’ve to do so to make my bookshelf looks not too filthy. when i opened some old notes n glanced at my hand-writing. wow, my hand-writing was nicer than now. haha… grinned alone. but, what irritating me is i dun remember what i’d learned. i’d learned all of this? what’s this means? n some sort of it came out of mind. what a shamed…

at night, i just cooked instant noodles, to finish remained stock, for dinner. i’m quite lazy lately. no wonder ’cause exam was over. hihihi… had dinner while watching tv, n then called my family. then, i became bored. so, i went out to 7 eleven to buy some snack for supper n then ramble at bookstore, just looked aroud if there any nice book to read. i use to read tv guide book n fashion mag. but today, i found a magazine about ipod. really good n reasonable. i should buy it, but i dun want. haha..so i read over there n took note some useful links.

after half an hour i was there, i went back home n started writing this post (^^,) that was my story about 1st day of holiday. sound boring may be. wanna remind myself actually.