08.31.09
summer fever
yeah, it’s been a month summer break has been. i really enjoyed this holiday, go many places n quite bad thing – spent much money
i just wanna summarize how i spent this year summer holiday. may be i’ll miss this kind of holiday – hang out, play around n spent $$$ huhu~ but, i dun do anything related to my lab. perhaps next months will be a suffering time 4 me. iya daa..
here, how my holiday goes..Aug 1 : went to firework festival at minatomirai, yokohama. my first; n may be last time, i wore yukata ^_^
Aug 3&4 : summer camp 4 my lab. i didn’t do well 4 my presentation. quite sad, but really enjoyed chatting with my mates. they kept talking about rabu-rabu = love things. hmm…
Aug 6 : went risuen (squirrel park) at machida. it’s really fun playing with squirrel till one of them peed on my pants >_< at nite, went to sea fireworks again at tokyo.
Aug 12 : went to fujiQ ^^ it’s a nice trip, but quite disappointed since many people on that day, plus the express pass sold out quickly. haish..
Aug 13 : went to disneysea \(^0^)/ i really enjoyed n luv it. it seems i’d been a kanak2 riang over there; snap pic with ariel, hugged by max, waved hand to mickey n minnie n so on. luv the rides n shows too. wish can go there again next time.
Aug 14 : had lunch n window shopping at mizunoguchi. lastly i bought sumthing at comme Ça ism. XD
Aug 17 : accompanied my housemate to tokyo station to buy some souvenirs b4 going back malaysia. it’s quite good places; many delicacies shops, plus japan tv channel store. =)
Aug 18 ~20 : watch korean drama; cinderella man. luv yoona n another cast in the drama. hehe~ taebak!
Aug 21 : had lunch at karachi restaurant, shinjuku with juniors, n then window shopping at tokyu hands =p
Aug 22 : 1st day ramadhan. went shopping 4 one weak buka puasa n sahur; all instant n ready-to-eat. due to no work to do (only my use-to-be excuse), i started watching another korean drama, my girl. quite old, but i didn’t watch it overall. *wink*
Aug 23 : went to machida; window shopping again. but, terbeli gak some t-shirt at comme Ça ism again; cause it’s had sale. hihihi…
Aug 24 : went to tokyo station to buy souvenirs 4 my family. over-budget le plak. -_-”
Aug 26 : finished watching my girl drama. luv cute couple of lee dong wook and lee dae hae, n their acting too. bassyak!
Aug 27 : met my lab sensei; to say to him that i’m going back to malaysia 4 a month. had a chat with him n suddenly he ask me to take part in poster session at conference in early october. huh, what suppose to do. tried my best to read n revise some stuff given by my senior for submission of sumthin like draft of poster. at night, i went to kouhaitachi’s house 4 buka puasa n terawih. ^_^
Aug 29 : had discussion n did the submission 4 the poster session. went to masjid jamek tokyo 4 terawih prayer with my fren n had dinner at shimokitazawa
Aug 30 : buka puasa dinner at embassy apartmen, organized by malaysia embassy. the dishes were tip-top n got chance to know new frenz there. guess who? hehe~
tomorrow; Sept 1 : i’m going back home. yeah…wait 4 me malaysia. hope so i won’t spend much money when i’m at home. huhu…
wish me have a safe trip k… 
06.20.09
just wondering
….certain words, include the easy one too, have to translate from japanese. lol~ still wondering….n wondering…n wondering i’m sleepy rite now…just waiting for subuh prayer n then wanna go to sleep
may be this’s my full-english post…may be not?
after this, my post may be full of various language…till my frenz couldn’t understand it. X_Xstill in consideration…hmmm…
06.03.09
blurred @_@
this’s my first time posting from my research lab. actually i’ve to do preparation for this evening’s event - kenkyu kengaku (research lab visit). no idea – have to search some infos, plus references perhaps; to make my group presentation interesting.
no ideas to present? such that’s word i could say? after 2 months starting this new term.…gosh. no improvement.
just now, before i went to pray, i had a chat with my sensei n one of my lab mate. at that time, he had just finished showing a movie; entitled godzila sumthin2, which he also involved in certain parts.
he asked me to think about this evening events. eh, what’s suppose i talk? frankly? could i? puzzled.
then, he seemed uneasy; no way. u can’t be like that. we should attract students to come to n to join our lab by interesting points.
n then, i dunno why, he said to me, n my mate still at that lab; i’m differ from others malaysian that he has met. he said that i’m not proactive. ‘perhaps,’ my heart said; i’m quite hesitate n nervous in action. hmm… 
what should i say. just quiet. no offense. *_*
may be i use to play fools, not concentrate n be serious in works etc. oh my God…prefering to be ‘relax’ with no performance. just follow the trend – continue study in master or work…n then what i will be?
i’m always speechless when people do ask me about my future dreams. i’m really confius – i feel tired n getting sick in this field. lots of things have to study n grasp. @_@ should i change my profession-to-be to others? no more this complicated mechinary stuff n find other kind of field……
how my life path will going to be..O Allah, guide n help me. ~ameen~
have to continue my work. wish me luck k, guyz…
04.16.09
when sakura blossom….
just wanna drop something in my blog, since i dun update it 4 two weeks. really sorry 4 it (_ _) it’s not because i’m busy or what; just no idea 4 entry…huhu. btw, this post just mumbles from me, myself n i. plz 4give me if it sounds weird or meaningless. 
sakura blossom in early april n around that time the school’s (n university’s too) term starts.
it’s about a year i’m in japan. it seems really fast, the time is. unexpected! even it was a year, i refuse to admit the fact. haha…what the heck i’m writing here? i dunno how to say it; it looks like i can’t say my one-year-experiences has mutured me. i still have no confidence about my future life. voices of afraid n worry are heard deep from my heart.what should i do next? my life path will be getting dull? oh no…i dun want it happen.
may be sometimes, i enjoy too much in this life. oh, we’re young! it’s youth time. seishun da. do i take granted 4 what i got? that’s why i do take easy. >_<
i’m always getting into confusion. is this correct? is that okay? n sometimes i think i’m a liar or hypocrite in my own life; seems i’m trapped by myself in others’ shadows. again, weird thing i write here though. are all my actions, till now, are correct? or just my act to promote myself n dun wanna hurt anybody.those worries n thought haunt my mind lately. i dunno what to say or decide to do. so, i just continue my life as usual, but at the same time try doing my best 4 anything i could. as well, hoping Allah s.w.t will help this nothing-good slave n let know what the best to do. huhu. ameen~
i really wanna start (or may be reset?) my daily life with brightness, even others feel not. hehe…;-)
02.22.09
what time is it?
what time is it? it’s holiday time ler…hahaha 
it’s been almost a month i spend spring vacation by doing baito a.k.a part time job (not everyday k) n be at home or going out 4 meals. it’s been repeating like that may be till next week; ’cause i’ll be going back to Malaysia next march \(^0^)/can’t wait.
but….
i’ve to settle up many things (?) b4 going back home-sweet-home.
- decide theme 4 last year thesis theme a.k.a kenkyu tema – dunno what to do. mayotta…what i plan to do 4 my final year? programming? robotic? computing? which one, huh? i’ve to submit it b4 26th march, but i really wanna forget about academic stuff when i’m back home in malaysia. if i’ve to do it, shouganai (it can’t be helped).
- buy souvenirs 4 my family n frenz.
- do re-entry visa, settle my house bills n everything.
- plan 4 holiday (?) am i doing it wisely? just roughly okay right. ^_^
n…
what i’m going to miss when i’m in malaysia; perhaps. just think n list down…dunno i’m really going to miss them or not.
- onigiri (nasi kepal)….my almost everyday’s breakfast. – quite fast to eat too. hehe…
- japan’s chill
- easy-going n fast public transport. it’s really hard to get bus in my hometown ’cause it’s a rural area. huhu…
- nice japanese people (?) n nice-cutee dogs. malaysian’s dogs are noisy n scary though >_<
- interesting n educational tv programs. well, u-know most of malaysia’s tv programs are about gossip talkshow or something like that.
- my fav dramas which i watch recently; kgotboda namja n mei-chan no shitsuji. but, it’s ok ’cause i’ll download them when i come back to japan =p
hope my journey to my hometown safe without any accident n so on. (-_-) looking forward 4 my holiday….yeah!
02.16.09
kgotboda namja
i’m really sorry guyz coz not updating my blog lately (_ _) may be dun have any idea after exam was over or i became damn lazy. oh gosh! cannot be; must be better than yesterday right?
what i’m doing lately; since now is haru yasumi (spring vacation) ? my pals n i went thru baito (part-time job) interview in early february n now we’re in training period. fyi, i’m doing tanaoroshi a.k.a stock-counting part-time job at nights. actually i wanna say excuse to my pal coz dun wanna do any baito; since it’s really chill now (japan’s temperature is still under 10 degree), but i dun wanna disappointing him. so i took it. it’s nice job n can fulfill my leisure time during this holiday, (^^,) besides earn some money. what else i did? i went to enoshima yesterday with my frenz; to see valentine illumination in the isle. very amazing n superb! i’ll upload the pics in my facebook soon. hehe… sometimes i feel boring n a little bit tension with the baito. well u-know, i’m still in training n quite make a lot of mistake here n there. (-_-; ) to release my tension, i watch dramas n movie. one of the dramas that i watch recently is kgotboda namja or boys over flower (the korean version). am i promoting 2 u? x pe, layan jer =p
i think most of u; especially my jad frenz had ever seen the japanese version of this drama. so, may be u’ll think it’s wasting time to watch the same drama but in different language. for me, it’s not! of coz i’m fulfilling my past time with benefitial things by watching the drama, n also the story line has a little bit different with the japanese version. (sorry, i can’t compare with the taiwanese version since i watched certain episodes only)
i’m also wanna say sorry to the hana yori dango’s fan coz i think the korean version is better. 
change from scene to scene is smooth n the story’s flow differs from the comic a.k.a manga. the director n script-writer play good role to make the story fantastic; the actors n actress too.
most of us know the drama is about love between super-rich boy n poor girl. but, one episode (may be 2 episodes; i’m quite not sure coz dun really remember exactly) of the drama bring the family theme, dragged my attention. in those episodes, jun pyo (domyouji in japanese version) came to jan di’s (makino) house n had a stay there. he enjoyed the stay with jan di’s family; made kimchi (korean dish), had breakfast with family, went to public-bath with jan di’s dad n little bro n ate cheap food at the road-side stall. all of those made he understand what life is n the value of family. since he was a child, he grew up in a lonely life as his parents busy with the company stuff n so on, made him boring n irritating with the rich-style living. from that episode, i knew that he had understand the family’s value n appreciated his lover deeply, n would not break the promise he made with jan di. huhu...just my own opinion.
from that drama also, i conscious that family bond is really important. even we have hundred of frenz around the world, our family can’t be compared to them easily. they are the first people we live with n know well about us. i really wanna do something to make my parents n family happy. getting far away from them make our passion strong right? hanareba hanareru hodo, kazoku to no aijyou ha tsuyoku nareru jyanai? hope so my journey to hometown next month may strengthen my love n affection to them n make me know who’s really am i for them. ~ameen~
01.05.09
new year…a new dimension (?)
happy new year
明けましておめでとうございます。
i think it’s not late for me to wish my dearest frenz n readers happy new year 2009, even today it’s the fifth day of ‘09. i hope we’ll try the best for this brand new story. i dun wanna write about this new year stuff ’cause i’d written about it in past post. huhu…
i’ve been lazy lately, so i try to think n create something unique or special for my post.
last friday, my frenz n i went to toyosu n aomi; just rambled around there, ’cause i’d not been there yet. after friday prayer, we rushed to toyosu first for lunch at surabaya restaurant. indonesian meals in a traditional styled restaurant made me feel hi-class enough (^^,) after having dusk sight-seeing there, three of us moved to aomi. we tried riding on cars n enjoyed some attractions at toyota motor showcase over there, besides window-shoping around venus fort. then, at night, we went to ikebukuro, walk around there n had our late dinner; may be i can say it’s our dinner+supper at saizeriya. haha…
a view from surabaya restaurant at toyosu
at that underground saizeriya restaurant, we had our last meals of the day while having chat about our life till now in japan; recall what we’d faced when the first time we’re here. most of us faced money probs at that time due to some reasons. my friend said that he had to borrowed money from others while the other one had to eat bread n drink pipe-water ’cause of that lacking money prob. how pity were they. m(T_T)m
how about me, then? alhamdulillah, i didn’t face that kind of prob ’cause i inherit my senpai’s house n no need to buy most of home appliances. besides that, i’d rented for sharing house, so the budget was not too much; compared to now though. (-.-;) just facing challenges to use to new environment. how lucky i was…
what happened in my frenz there, n some of the rests too, make me appreciate n grateful for what i have now. even i’d my own hardship, but till now the finance part is quite enough for me. praise be to God.
but, sometimes i feel very ‘cozy’ in this situation. am i in a comfortable zone? pleasure is everywhere n no need to worry about any loss n so on. just take easy what happened in surroundings. no need to push myself forward to ‘perform’ better n successfully. oh come on man! it makes me remain as myself in past. no progress, full of nothing, use to depend others, lack of interests n motivation n so on (*_*)
dulu zaman kurushi….skang zaman gucci
(it was hard time, but now is gucci time a.k.a luxury)
do i need something to push myself on? for instance, a motivation. i think i need some. but, how? waiting somebody (or something) to come n cheer me up. may be nobody come till i cheer myself up first. i must find something to motivate me; ’cause yaruki ga nai (have no motivation/enthusiasm) lately, even exam just around the corner. huhu…or should i be strict to myself (>_<) 人に優しく、自分に厳しく (be gentle to others, be strict to myself)
just sort of mumbles…till next post. see ya..
