09.28.09
noodle station
i’m on9-ing at noodle station, sunway carnival rite now. so i take this chance to rite sumthin in my blog; since i dun update anything 4 this month. hehe…
my lunch at noodle station - mi kari n lemonad orange =)
this month is september. there’s an important date in september; my birthday. hihihi…\(^0^)/ thanx to u’all who did remember my besdey n wish me thru any medium; facebook, sms etc. btw, i wanna say sorry coz can’t reply ur wishes, guyz; coz i dun on9 around that day till today. then, i was really surprise coz my mom bought me birthday cake on that day. *shy2*
birthday cake from my mom...=)
this month also, we’all celebrate aidilfitri rite. thank God coz on this day i had opportunity to meet my long-time-no-see family n relatives. i hope this kinda meeting can motivate me to become more bersyukur to Him n remind me about what must i do n be in this life. huhu…hope so i dun miss them so much when i’m in japan. *wink*
actually i’m so worried about next week. i’m going to attend poster session at a conference in kyoto, but i dun prepare yet at all. just checked email today n took note about what to do. hope i can do well.
me: really bersyukur also coz malaysia airlines found my lost digi-cam in the flight. i just noticed that i lost it after five days at home…lolz
08.26.09
mumble…again =p
it’s been a long time 4 me to write n mumble in this blog. hehe..
i know, it’s ramadhan now; n we suppose to avoid any nonsense talking, but ’cause it’s ramadhan lah i keep thinking much. ye ker…?? yeah, i’m home alone now, for a week b4 i’m leaving 4 malaysia \(^0^)/ ; plus dun have any work to do (actually no mood to do any stuff) -_-”\
frankly speaking, i just wondering what my future life path will be; still wondering n thinking. am i going to pursue my study; really do i?my research dun perform well; no result. so, i should work it out ler. ^_~ no more play around. it doesn’t make sense, if u said u wanna study further in ur field but no work hard towards it. (mumbles toward myself la pulak) n then, how about work? hmm…i’m scared n worried; am i really can do work in new environment. huh, what the heck am i talking. must think positive k. say no to no confidence. [how much i repeat those words, huh]
besides that, recently i do thinking about if i dun get the scholars 2 pursue my studies, by any chances, should i just go back to malaysia? hmm…i luv japan n i think if i’ve to go back, i’m going to miss life in japan. =_=” but, if Allah have takdirkan me for not staying here (japan); i must accept it sensibly, rite. He knows better n best for us *wink*
sumtimes i kinda fed up to myself >_< cause can’t make up my mind wisely, hard to decide well; or do i prefer dreaming rather than facing reality. X_X hmm..am i really damn worry about everything around me, plus my own probs make me hard to think well. lolz~ @_@
that’s for now..it’s better i talk n mumble the positive things, perhaps.
O Allah, help n guide me…~ameen~
<<always keep the faiths>>
06.17.09
nuthin much important…
what i’m going to write in my blog today, huh?
there’s somebody ask me to update this ‘mirotic’ blog 
guess who?? but, i dun do it purposely coz of his/her request. actually there’re some incident happened today, can’t stop laugh when recalling them, so i wanna leave here. really sowwy if i mix up my language. actually i planned to write in malay (loghat utagha lagi =p ) , but i changed my mind. ngeh3
this morning, i’d korean language class. usually in that class, we’re asked to make sentences using given words by the lecturer. there’s one time, i was asked by her to read my own sentence, ’cause my sentence is different from what my classmate wrote on the whiteboard. but, i didn’t read mine. just read what is writen on the whiteboard. lol~ the whole class burst into laughter. fortunately, there’re only four students in that class. ^^ then, my lecturer asked me a question (actually we’re learning the honorific phrase at that time) in korean:
are u japanese people? (japanese in korean is ‘ilbonpun/ilbonsaram’)i didnn’t realize what the meaning was. i just said ne (yes). so, the class full with laughter again. *_* really ashamed. mecha2. messed up one more time. after i answered correctly, i realized that ilbon means japan. hahaha….
that’s what happened in korean class. then, what happened in my research lab.
one of phd student in my lab is still studying japanese, so she dun speak much. at that time, my lab-mate wanna try to speak in english with her, learning english perhaps. =) i was peeping them through the glass of door. but, how come he saw me, n called me; to translate. eventually, i spoke with her. she explained what was asked, so i just nodded. at that time, i didn’t notice he n one of his pal are watching both of us; me in the phd students. they laughed at me ’cause i just nodded n didn’t speak much. >_< after the phd student a.k.a our lab senior went to her desk, both of them said that she is so cute. 
i had to laugh despite myself when i told everything to her, after a while chatting with them. hope so she wouldn’t read this blog. huhu~
ok…till then.
06.08.09
crap…
what did i do in this weekend? not much – just enjoyed myself at home, besides went to gym. my weight decrease a little bit. must work hard to gain more. >_<
hmm…at this time, i wanna read the given thesis. but, not important things came to my mind. i wanna shopping, go watching movies at cinema, rambles around n spending money…..gosh. can those things satisfy myself? do them make me happy ever after? 
no willingness to do my stuff. dun start research proposal yet – to be submit next month (-_-”)
i messed up my presentation for kenkyushitsu kengaku (visiting lab 4 3rd year student). really ashamed *_*- my mates laughed at my speech. what the heck!? one more day left. should i get prepared earlier?
my research dun progress much. – hope so i’ll be going to lab frequently. must do revision on programming besides reading past years senpai’s thesis.
na no mu kungume (i’m so curious) =p
06.03.09
blurred @_@
this’s my first time posting from my research lab. actually i’ve to do preparation for this evening’s event - kenkyu kengaku (research lab visit). no idea – have to search some infos, plus references perhaps; to make my group presentation interesting.
no ideas to present? such that’s word i could say? after 2 months starting this new term.…gosh. no improvement.
just now, before i went to pray, i had a chat with my sensei n one of my lab mate. at that time, he had just finished showing a movie; entitled godzila sumthin2, which he also involved in certain parts.
he asked me to think about this evening events. eh, what’s suppose i talk? frankly? could i? puzzled.
then, he seemed uneasy; no way. u can’t be like that. we should attract students to come to n to join our lab by interesting points.
n then, i dunno why, he said to me, n my mate still at that lab; i’m differ from others malaysian that he has met. he said that i’m not proactive. ‘perhaps,’ my heart said; i’m quite hesitate n nervous in action. hmm… what should i say. just quiet. no offense. *_*
may be i use to play fools, not concentrate n be serious in works etc. oh my God…prefering to be ‘relax’ with no performance. just follow the trend – continue study in master or work…n then what i will be?
i’m always speechless when people do ask me about my future dreams. i’m really confius – i feel tired n getting sick in this field. lots of things have to study n grasp. @_@ should i change my profession-to-be to others? no more this complicated mechinary stuff n find other kind of field……
how my life path will going to be..O Allah, guide n help me. ~ameen~
have to continue my work. wish me luck k, guyz…
05.28.09
nuthin’ much happened (?)
it’s quarter to 4 o’clock in the morning right now.
i wanna write sumthin in my blog b4 going to sleep. ^_- yesterday, i attended korean class after a week of no class last week. today, we learned pronunciation by using video n has finished up the hangul (korean alphabets). 
in the class, we’ve to pronounce the words by turn. it’s quite anxious when my turn comes, but yesterday i made it – almost all words i pronounced perfectly! i’m perfect for you~ (lol) i was really happy; on top of the world. may be it’s a reward 4 my efforts. huhu…
then, there’s another story. actually, the day b4 it, i made a bet 2 myself – to speak out to one of 4 mates (but yesterday suddenly become five) after the class. so, i tried to walked slowly, not far away from two of them. lastly, i got it – chatted n self-introduced each other. hehe.. =) amusing though.
from those incident (?) i conscious that i’m really interested in korean language. no offense about that. so, i should try hard n smart to love learning programming, doing research stuff n reading thesis things. no more turning back k….!! (whisper to myself )
ok guyz….nite nite nite~ annyong
05.11.09
fate, destiny or…
it’s been a long time 4 me 2 write sumthin in this blog. huhu~
last week, i went to career fair for malaysian students who are going to graduate next spring. i just went there to know the atmosphere of career fair, while looking for what kind of job n company i like. =p i dun wanna talk about that fair, since i failed interview at sony malaysia booth. T_T may be i should get prepared well n talk with more energetic next time. 
from that career fair, i made up my mind about something; do i really wanna study till master degree or begin new life with career?
why i think like that? ’cause i had chat with many people, n my mates too, n also it came up to my mind. some people said better proceed ur study to master level ’cause recession we have now n some suggested to work since experience is valuable. which one is better, huh? i dunno. so, i wanna try both? should i? at the same time, my kenkyu (research) seems no progress. i dunno what to do, ’cause everything i’ve to do on my own. (-_-”) dunno how to start; ’cause sensei just give us task to do without any guidance. so, there’s no way unless learn by own self. then, i was shocked ’cause i though sensei will teach us everything, especially the basic stuff. may be it’s a kind of new turning point in life (?)
but, sometimes i feel uncomfortable in that lab. even my mates be kind toward me, i dun have confidence about my research. it doesn’t mean i dun wanna do my best or what. it just came to my mind; am i really interested in this kind of study – lot of programming etc. i still remember in past years, when i’m still in 1st year or 2nd year if i’m not mistaken, i would not take any course or kenkyu related with programming. at that time i prefered sumthing related with bionics, physics, chemistry or materials. in contrast, now i’m in a programming-linked lab. how it turned to be? it’s a fate or destiny or…
last saturday, i had an online-chat with a senior from one of prestigious universities in japan. he said (became a good advise to me perhaps) : we must have interest in what we do. if not, nothing will happen. i must open my eyes to see the reality in my life. yosh..!! no more play full or halfway job a.k.a tochuhampa. should i try to find sort of interesting point in my research first. huhu~
at least, i must become myself, rather than follow others or trend. ^_-
O Allah, guide me…
04.29.09
uninvited dinner \(^0^)/
i’d just finished my resume n performed subuh prayer when i wrote this post. =) i’m quite sleepy right now. so i dun wanna mumble too much for this post. hihi…
last evening, i went to shibuya to accompany my frenz to a dinner, even i was not invited. it’s not mean i’m shameless or what, just represent her pal. actually i thought the dinner was held informally; japanese standing style party. but, it was not; dinner around table in a booked dining room. wow, an exclusive dinner i’ve ever had.
i dun wanna talk about the dishes. of course, they’re super expensive, since held in hi-class hotel in shibuya. what i really attracted is the topic about. the organizer was the people from large global company, exxon mobil n the dinner is promoting the company to japanese university graduates. actually i dun have any interests about the company, or even the job-hunting, since i plan to proceed my study in master.
then, when the department manager talked about the company policy n working environment, it attracted myself. they offer us working in overseas while undergoing training. it’s cool n frankly speaking i want that kind of job – dun concentrate on certain job only, capable to do varies kind of tasks n can go working abroad. hehe… but, do i have enough ability 4 those kinds of work or it’s just my cannot-to-fulfill-dream? so, i must made up my mind to work hard, n smart too, to make my dream come true. ^_^
aja aja fighting..!!
04.21.09
puzzled :(-_-”):
i just came back from english class at main campus; surugadai near ochanomizu station. i’ve to go there by train. really exhausted though, rite now. huhu…
there’re many things happened lately, in my life. i dunno whether it supposed to be or not. may be God has decided them happened n i dun notice what the gud things behind. what’s on earth i wanna talk about, huh? okey, back to the point. what’s happened in last week; n what’s going to happen this week too.
last week, the 1st ever lab session has begun, on thursday. we’d to decided which field of themes. at that time, i was speechless, n puzzled. had i thought wisely ’bout that? omG..i guess sensei is going to give some briefing about research n so on. i was wrong. he said;”if i delay time, u’all won’t think. so, it’s better for u decide now n u’ll work 4 it, i think.” sort of that. >_< so, i’ve no idea at that time, ’cause i’m confius either to take image processing (画像処理) or dna computing (DNAコンピュティング). at that time, i was really wanna run away 4 not thinking about that, or going back to past to think again. hehe…what’s the heck! then, i just said i wanna do image processing, as recommended by him. last month, i sent e-mail to sensei about the research themes n i wrote about image processing, since i’d no idea about dna computing. then, he suggested me to do research about sumthing related to image processing. i was in malaysia at that time, so it’s difficult to find references etc.
both of the fields seem interesting. dna computing is new field of my research lab, n preferred by sensei. on the other hand, image processing is quite hard; full of programming n sumthin like that. (-_-”) fortunately, for both of those research areas, i’ve malaysian sempai. ^^v
really hope so that what i’d chosen is right. gambaru shika nai…(?)
yesterday i’d seminar class – reading some english research papers, which related with the research theme. then, my turn came; to translate, n explain some of the words. at that moment, i dunno why; my english n japanese became like trash; going upside-down. ashamed 4 that. 
i supposed to understand what terms used in the paper, but i’ve no idea ’bout that. so, i really sorry 2 sensei, n my mates too.
this thursday, we’re going to write study proposal; about what we’re going to do 4 thesis in one whole year – sumthing like research plan. oh my~ it like a sudden to do sumthing in rush. so, i’m going to meet my team-mates tomorrow to discuss about that. hope so ideas will come out..=)
but, tomorrow i’ve also korean class. yeah..! learning new language, even i dunno i capable of that or not. at least, the lecturer is nice n said there’re no student fail in that subject yet. huhu~
i’m looking forward for everything in my life. haha~ going crazy already (?)
04.16.09
when sakura blossom….
just wanna drop something in my blog, since i dun update it 4 two weeks. really sorry 4 it (_ _) it’s not because i’m busy or what; just no idea 4 entry…huhu. btw, this post just mumbles from me, myself n i. plz 4give me if it sounds weird or meaningless.
sakura blossom in early april n around that time the school’s (n university’s too) term starts.
it’s about a year i’m in japan. it seems really fast, the time is. unexpected! even it was a year, i refuse to admit the fact. haha…what the heck i’m writing here? i dunno how to say it; it looks like i can’t say my one-year-experiences has mutured me. i still have no confidence about my future life. voices of afraid n worry are heard deep from my heart.what should i do next? my life path will be getting dull? oh no…i dun want it happen.
may be sometimes, i enjoy too much in this life. oh, we’re young! it’s youth time. seishun da. do i take granted 4 what i got? that’s why i do take easy. >_<
i’m always getting into confusion. is this correct? is that okay? n sometimes i think i’m a liar or hypocrite in my own life; seems i’m trapped by myself in others’ shadows. again, weird thing i write here though. are all my actions, till now, are correct? or just my act to promote myself n dun wanna hurt anybody.those worries n thought haunt my mind lately. i dunno what to say or decide to do. so, i just continue my life as usual, but at the same time try doing my best 4 anything i could. as well, hoping Allah s.w.t will help this nothing-good slave n let know what the best to do. huhu. ameen~
i really wanna start (or may be reset?) my daily life with brightness, even others feel not. hehe…;-)
