10.11.09
coretan
sesaje nak tulis post kali ni dlm bahasa melayu lak. asyik tulis dlm english jer, cam borink lak. lagipun, bulan ni bulan bahasa kebangsaan. so, mari2 lah semarakkannya walaupun tulis dlm bhs melayu rojak. hehe…lolz~
cintaku tertinggal di malaysia
may be cam ‘over’ le plak statement di atas, tp aku rasa camtu le perasaan aku time smpai jepun slps lebih sebulan blk mesia. rasa cam x nk blk sini jer. time first2 smpai sini, kna g dai (universiti) sbb nk kna selesaikan dokumen2 yg perlu tuk interbiu dgn pihak jucte. penat gak, tp kna siapkan gak. sbb aq baru sedar yg aku pny turn kul 11. memang x smpt sbb flight yg aku nek smpai narita dkt kul 8. seb bek izyan nk tukar tmpt dgn aku, aku leh le g ptg. huhu..
tp time jln2 tu, aku terpk; betul ke aku kat nihon nih. cam mimpi ler, cam first time smpai ler…ish3. ntah pape. mungkin ni le padahnye blk mesia lama sngt. pastu duk rumah je. jadi rasa best sngt duk kat rumah, dgn ♥family♥ lak tuh. huk3. 
seronok sngt men n buli adik2 kat rumah. wawawa…tp aku rasa cam dh hilang self-esteem n keyakinan diri waktu smpai2 sini dan pd masa yg sama perlukan motivasi yg besar atau pembakar semangat tuk menyambung dan menyelesaikan tanggungjawab di sini. (-_-”)
proses pemulihan diri perlu dimulakan dgn segera dan diharapkan berjaya…kui3
p/s: tajuk lagu sebenarnye…lagu kumpulan dewa (kalo x silap). check it out at youtube…;-)
pengalaman baru
ari esok tu pulak, kna siapkan poster tuk conference kat ritsumeikan university. dgn bantuan senior, kak mimah dpt gak siapkan. aku dh wat tp, bla wat dgn senior aku tu, berlain giler..zen2 chigau. haha…x pe le. first timer kan. nak wat camne. tp sumer dh ok, mlm tu bertolak le kmi ke kyoto tuk conference selama tiga hari. aku bermalam kat rmh saido, adib & lan pali sementara kak mimah bermalam kat hotel. aku bukan x nak duk hotel, dah x dpt support dari dai n sensei, so aku malas le nak bazirkan duit duk hotel. kui3. duk rmh diorang pun ok gak, tp jauh nak mampus dari eki (stesen). letih naek beskal; dah le berbukit, dgn brg2 aku yg agak bnyk. sabar je lah…kui3
tuk conference a.k.a gakkai tu, aku hanya terlibat tuk poster session; jaga poster ttg hasil research kak mimah. aku rasa cam spoilerΨ le plak sbb bnyk soalan yg aku x leh jwb. kak mimah pun jwb sket2 je dan lepas tu blah g jln2 tgk poster orang len. X_X nak wat camne. dah nasib. lepas ni kna wat persediaan yg cukup. dah le kak mimah terang kat aku psl research dia tu sblm aku blk mesia. lps blk mesia, sumer ilmu2 tu keluar dari otak ini dgn ketidak-sengajaannya (alasan jer tuh…) camne le plak final paper aku nanti. harap dpt wat dgn jayanya. ~ameen~ ^_~
taufan melur
ari pertama conference tu diramalkan ribut taufan. cuak gak le sbb tgk berita mcm2 hal berlaku. dijadikan cerita, waktu aku blk dari conference hujan lebat giler ditambah lagi dgn angin kuat. lencun lah aku mlm tu yg berpakaian sut lengkap menaiki basikal smbl berpayung. nek beskal kejap berhenti sbb payung rosak kna angin kuat; kayuh2 berhenti lagi sbb x larat nak nek bukit dgn angin kuat; ingt nk tolak je smpai rumah bdk2 rits tu tp rsa kalo tolak je bskl, mesti baju aku akan bertambah lencun. lastly, aku bertahan tuk mengayuh basikal dlm hujan. >_< aku rasa tu le pengalaman yg x dpt dilupakan kut sepanjang duk shiga.
kyoto bandar bersejarah
ari terakhir conference tuh, bdk2 rits (saido, adib n salmi) ajak aku n kak mimah mkn kat kedai mskn india raju. mknn yg mmg enak banget – tandoori set. smpai diorang bdk2 rits sendiri x abiskan. =p…tp bagak tul roti nan dia. ditambah lagi dgn pulut kuning & ayam tandoori. ^^ pastu g bb; game arcade n men smpai sejam. enjoy gak tempat tu ditambah lg dgn harganya yg berpatutan. nsb bek esok tu aku blk. kalo x, nak g lagi jawabnye..haha
sblm blk ke ikuta, aku n kak mimah g jln2 sekitar kyoto dgn bantuan adib sbg pemandu pelancong. =) disebabkan kyoto ni besar yak amat, x smpt le nk g sumer tempat cambest. kami smpt g kyoto tower; seronok tul teropong kwsn sekeliling smbl tgk tmpt2 menarik sekitar kyoto, g jln2 kat gion; mkn set unagidon tuk mkn tghari, g nijojo (nijo castle); x leh msk sbb smpai lmbt tp leh le tngkp gmbr kat luar..hehe. ade gak tmpt yg teringin nk g tp x leh g sbb masa yg mmg sentiasa mencemburui kami x leh g gak; golden pavilion a.k.a kinkakuji temple (bkn pavilion kl k…haha), nek tren kat arashiyama n jumpa geisha kat gion. T_T tapi kehendak di hati nak makan takoyaki tercapai gak. \(^0^)/lps g nijojo, kmi g kyoto station tuk blk ke rmh…
terima kasih daun keladi
terima kasih kat saido, adib n lan sbb bagi tumpang tido kat rmh, plus servis mkn lg. ^_^ trimas gak kat salmi sbb bg pinjam beskal tuk 4 ari. thanx again kat adib sbb jadi tour guide pd ari last kami kat kyoto n ur treat too. *wink2* insyaAllah ade ari n rezeki, aku bls blk…kui3 
x lupa gak kat kak mimah tuk conference tuh; dari bwa saya ke conference, wat poster, mkn2, jln2 dan sumernye…tp sori le sbb x wat yg sebaik mungkin tuk sesi tu. insyaAllah kalo ada rezeki lg, saya akan wat lebih bek lg. ^_^
sekurang2nya skang aku dh recover cket; mgkn lps g conference n jmpa kwn2 lama kat rits kut. huhu~
p/s: mintak maap kalo post kali ni panjang sngt. sbb rasa cam nak tulis je ape yg terbuku di kepala otak & hati ni, sbb tu jadi berjela2 pnjgnye..hehe. (_ _)
08.26.09
mumble…again =p
it’s been a long time 4 me to write n mumble in this blog. hehe..
i know, it’s ramadhan now; n we suppose to avoid any nonsense talking, but ’cause it’s ramadhan lah i keep thinking much. ye ker…?? yeah, i’m home alone now, for a week b4 i’m leaving 4 malaysia \(^0^)/ ; plus dun have any work to do (actually no mood to do any stuff) -_-”\
frankly speaking, i just wondering what my future life path will be; still wondering n thinking. am i going to pursue my study; really do i?my research dun perform well; no result. so, i should work it out ler. ^_~ no more play around. it doesn’t make sense, if u said u wanna study further in ur field but no work hard towards it. (mumbles toward myself la pulak) n then, how about work? hmm…i’m scared n worried; am i really can do work in new environment. huh, what the heck am i talking. must think positive k. say no to no confidence. [how much i repeat those words, huh]
besides that, recently i do thinking about if i dun get the scholars 2 pursue my studies, by any chances, should i just go back to malaysia? hmm…i luv japan n i think if i’ve to go back, i’m going to miss life in japan. =_=” but, if Allah have takdirkan me for not staying here (japan); i must accept it sensibly, rite. He knows better n best for us *wink*
sumtimes i kinda fed up to myself >_< cause can’t make up my mind wisely, hard to decide well; or do i prefer dreaming rather than facing reality. X_X hmm..am i really damn worry about everything around me, plus my own probs make me hard to think well. lolz~ @_@
that’s for now..it’s better i talk n mumble the positive things, perhaps.
O Allah, help n guide me…~ameen~
<<always keep the faiths>>
08.19.09
no surprise (0_0);
it’s been a long time; more than a month i think, i dun write anything in this blog. i know u miss me, rite? ngeh3
really sorry 4 that m(_ _)m; no specific reasons; just no mood+no idea+change of mood+bla bla bla…(only excuses perhaps not)
for this post, i dun have any special idea to write actually. since we’re going to celebrate ramadhan soon, so i wanna wish happy ramadhan [ade ker org wish camni? ape2 je lah...layan]. at the same time, i wanna ask forgiveness from u’all if i’d make any mistake. m(_ _)m i’m sooooo sorry 4 everything. it’s true that apology is easier rather than forgive; but i’ve no choice n i’ll try my best to motivate myself to be a better man. huhu~
plus, i know i’m not a perfect guy in this world *sob3* so no need to get mad at me k…hehe~
ok, let’s celebrate ramadhan with upgrading our iman n amal. hope so (?)
~ameen~
06.08.09
crap…
what did i do in this weekend? not much – just enjoyed myself at home, besides went to gym. my weight decrease a little bit. must work hard to gain more. >_<
hmm…at this time, i wanna read the given thesis. but, not important things came to my mind. i wanna shopping, go watching movies at cinema, rambles around n spending money…..gosh. can those things satisfy myself? do them make me happy ever after?
no willingness to do my stuff. dun start research proposal yet – to be submit next month (-_-”)
i messed up my presentation for kenkyushitsu kengaku (visiting lab 4 3rd year student). really ashamed *_*- my mates laughed at my speech. what the heck!? one more day left. should i get prepared earlier?
my research dun progress much. – hope so i’ll be going to lab frequently. must do revision on programming besides reading past years senpai’s thesis.
na no mu kungume (i’m so curious) =p
06.03.09
blurred @_@
this’s my first time posting from my research lab. actually i’ve to do preparation for this evening’s event - kenkyu kengaku (research lab visit). no idea – have to search some infos, plus references perhaps; to make my group presentation interesting.
no ideas to present? such that’s word i could say? after 2 months starting this new term.…gosh. no improvement.
just now, before i went to pray, i had a chat with my sensei n one of my lab mate. at that time, he had just finished showing a movie; entitled godzila sumthin2, which he also involved in certain parts.
he asked me to think about this evening events. eh, what’s suppose i talk? frankly? could i? puzzled.
then, he seemed uneasy; no way. u can’t be like that. we should attract students to come to n to join our lab by interesting points.
n then, i dunno why, he said to me, n my mate still at that lab; i’m differ from others malaysian that he has met. he said that i’m not proactive. ‘perhaps,’ my heart said; i’m quite hesitate n nervous in action. hmm… what should i say. just quiet. no offense. *_*
may be i use to play fools, not concentrate n be serious in works etc. oh my God…prefering to be ‘relax’ with no performance. just follow the trend – continue study in master or work…n then what i will be?
i’m always speechless when people do ask me about my future dreams. i’m really confius – i feel tired n getting sick in this field. lots of things have to study n grasp. @_@ should i change my profession-to-be to others? no more this complicated mechinary stuff n find other kind of field……
how my life path will going to be..O Allah, guide n help me. ~ameen~
have to continue my work. wish me luck k, guyz…
05.11.09
fate, destiny or…
it’s been a long time 4 me 2 write sumthin in this blog. huhu~
last week, i went to career fair for malaysian students who are going to graduate next spring. i just went there to know the atmosphere of career fair, while looking for what kind of job n company i like. =p i dun wanna talk about that fair, since i failed interview at sony malaysia booth. T_T may be i should get prepared well n talk with more energetic next time. 
from that career fair, i made up my mind about something; do i really wanna study till master degree or begin new life with career?
why i think like that? ’cause i had chat with many people, n my mates too, n also it came up to my mind. some people said better proceed ur study to master level ’cause recession we have now n some suggested to work since experience is valuable. which one is better, huh? i dunno. so, i wanna try both? should i? at the same time, my kenkyu (research) seems no progress. i dunno what to do, ’cause everything i’ve to do on my own. (-_-”) dunno how to start; ’cause sensei just give us task to do without any guidance. so, there’s no way unless learn by own self. then, i was shocked ’cause i though sensei will teach us everything, especially the basic stuff. may be it’s a kind of new turning point in life (?)
but, sometimes i feel uncomfortable in that lab. even my mates be kind toward me, i dun have confidence about my research. it doesn’t mean i dun wanna do my best or what. it just came to my mind; am i really interested in this kind of study – lot of programming etc. i still remember in past years, when i’m still in 1st year or 2nd year if i’m not mistaken, i would not take any course or kenkyu related with programming. at that time i prefered sumthing related with bionics, physics, chemistry or materials. in contrast, now i’m in a programming-linked lab. how it turned to be? it’s a fate or destiny or…
last saturday, i had an online-chat with a senior from one of prestigious universities in japan. he said (became a good advise to me perhaps) : we must have interest in what we do. if not, nothing will happen. i must open my eyes to see the reality in my life. yosh..!! no more play full or halfway job a.k.a tochuhampa. should i try to find sort of interesting point in my research first. huhu~
at least, i must become myself, rather than follow others or trend. ^_-
O Allah, guide me…
04.21.09
puzzled :(-_-”):
i just came back from english class at main campus; surugadai near ochanomizu station. i’ve to go there by train. really exhausted though, rite now. huhu…
there’re many things happened lately, in my life. i dunno whether it supposed to be or not. may be God has decided them happened n i dun notice what the gud things behind. what’s on earth i wanna talk about, huh? okey, back to the point. what’s happened in last week; n what’s going to happen this week too.
last week, the 1st ever lab session has begun, on thursday. we’d to decided which field of themes. at that time, i was speechless, n puzzled. had i thought wisely ’bout that? omG..i guess sensei is going to give some briefing about research n so on. i was wrong. he said;”if i delay time, u’all won’t think. so, it’s better for u decide now n u’ll work 4 it, i think.” sort of that. >_< so, i’ve no idea at that time, ’cause i’m confius either to take image processing (画像処理) or dna computing (DNAコンピュティング). at that time, i was really wanna run away 4 not thinking about that, or going back to past to think again. hehe…what’s the heck! then, i just said i wanna do image processing, as recommended by him. last month, i sent e-mail to sensei about the research themes n i wrote about image processing, since i’d no idea about dna computing. then, he suggested me to do research about sumthing related to image processing. i was in malaysia at that time, so it’s difficult to find references etc.
both of the fields seem interesting. dna computing is new field of my research lab, n preferred by sensei. on the other hand, image processing is quite hard; full of programming n sumthin like that. (-_-”) fortunately, for both of those research areas, i’ve malaysian sempai. ^^v
really hope so that what i’d chosen is right. gambaru shika nai…(?)
yesterday i’d seminar class – reading some english research papers, which related with the research theme. then, my turn came; to translate, n explain some of the words. at that moment, i dunno why; my english n japanese became like trash; going upside-down. ashamed 4 that. i supposed to understand what terms used in the paper, but i’ve no idea ’bout that. so, i really sorry 2 sensei, n my mates too.
this thursday, we’re going to write study proposal; about what we’re going to do 4 thesis in one whole year – sumthing like research plan. oh my~ it like a sudden to do sumthing in rush. so, i’m going to meet my team-mates tomorrow to discuss about that. hope so ideas will come out..=)
but, tomorrow i’ve also korean class. yeah..! learning new language, even i dunno i capable of that or not. at least, the lecturer is nice n said there’re no student fail in that subject yet. huhu~
i’m looking forward for everything in my life. haha~ going crazy already (?)
02.22.09
what time is it?
what time is it? it’s holiday time ler…hahaha 
it’s been almost a month i spend spring vacation by doing baito a.k.a part time job (not everyday k) n be at home or going out 4 meals. it’s been repeating like that may be till next week; ’cause i’ll be going back to Malaysia next march \(^0^)/can’t wait.
but….
i’ve to settle up many things (?) b4 going back home-sweet-home.
- decide theme 4 last year thesis theme a.k.a kenkyu tema – dunno what to do. mayotta…what i plan to do 4 my final year? programming? robotic? computing? which one, huh? i’ve to submit it b4 26th march, but i really wanna forget about academic stuff when i’m back home in malaysia. if i’ve to do it, shouganai (it can’t be helped).
- buy souvenirs 4 my family n frenz.
- do re-entry visa, settle my house bills n everything.
- plan 4 holiday (?) am i doing it wisely? just roughly okay right. ^_^
n…
what i’m going to miss when i’m in malaysia; perhaps. just think n list down…dunno i’m really going to miss them or not.
- onigiri (nasi kepal)….my almost everyday’s breakfast. – quite fast to eat too. hehe…
- japan’s chill
- easy-going n fast public transport. it’s really hard to get bus in my hometown ’cause it’s a rural area. huhu…
- nice japanese people (?) n nice-cutee dogs. malaysian’s dogs are noisy n scary though >_<
- interesting n educational tv programs. well, u-know most of malaysia’s tv programs are about gossip talkshow or something like that.
- my fav dramas which i watch recently; kgotboda namja n mei-chan no shitsuji. but, it’s ok ’cause i’ll download them when i come back to japan =p
hope my journey to my hometown safe without any accident n so on. (-_-) looking forward 4 my holiday….yeah!
01.25.09
oh gosh! a nightmare?
lately i really dun know why, bad dream haunted myself. this morning, after fajr (subuh) prayer, i fell asleep. quite sleepy though. i dreamt something bad thing happened to me. even i dun remember exactly what happened in my dream, i just wanna tell roughly.
here the story is;i went back home, in malaysia n met up with my family. what surprisingly happened is my family became distant n cold to me. (T_T) my dad scolded me because some reasons n my grandma really hated me. they wanna go away, n leave me alone. oh, come on man. what i’d done, huh?. i’m just came back from japan, dad. at that time, what came cross to my mind is: am i a bad son? become rude to family n so on. then, i woke up ’cause the handphone rang n i’d to answer it. actually i wanna continue sleeping, of course, to know the end of the story. hehehe… (what the heck?)
i’d also a bad dream yesterday, but i dun remember when it happened; b4 or after the subuh prayer. huhu.. i met with my younger sister in the dream. i was shocked at that time. my sister changed absolutely; became an elegant girl n money is on tip of fingers. may be it’s sound cool right? but, what made me tension is she became arrogant n lazy (like me? no no no…) >_< i tried to advise, even i’d scold her, to become good girl++ but, she make dunno jer… oh gosh, what happened to u? i really wanna cry at that time; is that ’cause of me? not a good bro, always nice to siblings, take care each others.
何だよ。。（－.ー；）
oh, i dunno what really happened to me. may be God wanna show n tell me something, or just a dream. i hope the second one; effect of exam’s pressure though. or may be i’m not a good guy enough. should think n reflect myself back.
01.14.09
u-know…
recently i don’t have any motivation to do works especially shiken benkyou (study 4 exam) even the exam just around the corner. should i find something to motivate myself? huhu…really dunno how. O God, help me…(-_-)
today i woke up a little bit late, again. i’ve to submit my lab experiment report today, before 1 p.m. i rushed to c.a.l.l lab to print out the report, a few minutes to 1 o’clock at that time. i really in hurry that time, OMG, can i stop the time for a while, so that i can submit the report b4 the time. at last, i managed to send it by hand to the in-charge sensei girigiri (barely in time). actually, i’d sent all the previous report barely in time too. oh, i thought that i can send b4 the time for the last report, unfortunately i can’t. oh no…! such a regret. (>_<)
then, i went to syokudo (cafeteria) for lunch. on the way, i met with my frenz n said i looked tension. am i? oh, may be. i’d a bowl of chikuwaten soba at syokudo, then went back home. i think i didn’t have a meal there for a month, ’cause almost all my class are after the afternoon break. (^_^)
actually i wanna study at library after that, but not kind of mood, so i canceled it. oh…what the heck. can anybody help curing my mood, plz….
lately, i use to listen korean songs, dunno why; especially ost of boys over flower korean version. t-max (paradise), ss501 (nae meoriga nabasseo) n shinee (stand by me) are the singers. hehe…try to listen them. may be u’ll fall for them too. hehe…hamattemasu.
tonight, i’m lucky ’cause my housemate made bbq chicken n also coslow (dunno how to spell it correctly, sorry) for dinner. it’s really appetizing n marvelous dinner. thanx dude. 
i think i got a little bit motivation or can i say energy to study after a nice dinner. hahaha…
tomorrow i’m going to see my lab senior to ask about her research. i dunno which theme i’ll do for last year thesis; hope so i can decide soon. (-.-; ) i dunno either to work or continue my study after grad next year though.
何だ俺は。。
marvellous dinner.
p/s: dun forget to pray for palestinians n update ourselves about the issue, even we’re going to seat for exam. have a nice day.
