this’s my first time posting from my research lab. actually i’ve to do preparation for this evening’s event - kenkyu kengaku (research lab visit). no idea – have to search some infos, plus references perhaps; to make my group presentation interesting.

no ideas to present? such that’s word i could say? after 2 months starting this new term.…gosh. no improvement.

just now, before i went to pray, i had a chat with my sensei n one of my lab mate. at that time, he had just finished showing a movie; entitled godzila sumthin2, which he also involved in certain parts.

he asked me to think about this evening events. eh, what’s suppose i talk? frankly? could i? puzzled.

then, he seemed uneasy; no way. u can’t be like that. we should attract students to come to n to join our lab by interesting points.

n then, i dunno why, he said to me, n my mate still at that lab; i’m differ from others malaysian that he has met. he said that i’m not proactive. ‘perhaps,’ my heart said; i’m quite hesitate n nervous in action. hmm… what should i say. just quiet. no offense. *_*

may be i use to play fools, not concentrate n be serious in works etc. oh my God…prefering to be ‘relax’ with no performance. just follow the trend – continue study in master or work…n then what i will be?

i’m always speechless when people do ask me about my future dreams. i’m really confius – i feel tired n getting sick in this field. lots of things have to study n grasp. @_@ should i change my profession-to-be to others? no more this complicated mechinary stuff n find other kind of field……

how my life path will going to be..O Allah, guide n help me. ~ameen~

have to continue my work. wish me luck k, guyz…