01.31.09
day by day
today is my 1st day of spring break holiday. huhu…
while enjoy unmemorable dream, my hand-phone rang at 6 a.m. gosh, disturbing my private time! my pal called me; woke me up, to quickly get prepared n go to their place, for sure, subuh prayer first. at that time, it’s so chill n still raining out there. i really wanna continue sleeping. so i just said; “sorry, i dun wanna go. ’cause it’s raining heavily out there, dude” n then hang up. actually last night, my pals had planned to go to ichigo gari today’s morning n i agreed, but today i’d changed my mind. what the heck?
then, i woke up at noon. it’s too hard to get out of the futon. soooo cold n wind was still blowing strongly at out of my room. >_< this morning’s call crossed in my mind. i really sorry to them ’cause breaking the promise. it made me feel guilty. stupid i..
after preparing myself, i went to school, even today is holiday. i planned to have my lunch at syokudo (cafe) n wanna consult something about syukatsu (job-hunting) at キャリア支援センタ(carrier support center). but, what’s disappointing me is syokudo was closed n support center too. (-_-; ) then, i just ate some snacks, bought from convenience store, as reading some pamphlets about syukatsu at wide area, somewhere near the center. something written in those pamphlets dragged my eyes n mind. several seniors who’re interviewed in the pamphlets advise for not easily following what others do but think about what we wanna do. dun just concern about kind of job only, consider our private self too. even our surrounding encourage us to do so, what we wanna do n is that thing suit ourselves come first.
周りから刺激をうけることはいいですが、流されると「自分は何がやりたいんだろう」と、そもそもの部分に戻ってしまいます。
まずは自分を見つめ直すことが、就活の第一歩です。
those words made me think again about to do syukatsu. i dunno what to do yet, so i must rest my brain n think carefully; what i wanna do. if i wanna work, what kind of work. may be it’s too early for me to start job-hunting. huhu… hope what i’m going to do is true. must believe in myself. (^_^)
at about 4 p.m, i went back home n tidied up my one whole year notes. i dun wanna throw some of the notes, such a precious memory though, but i’ve to do so to make my bookshelf looks not too filthy. when i opened some old notes n glanced at my hand-writing. wow, my hand-writing was nicer than now. haha… grinned alone. but, what irritating me is i dun remember what i’d learned. i’d learned all of this? what’s this means? n some sort of it came out of mind. what a shamed…
at night, i just cooked instant noodles, to finish remained stock, for dinner. i’m quite lazy lately. no wonder ’cause exam was over. hihihi… had dinner while watching tv, n then called my family. then, i became bored. so, i went out to 7 eleven to buy some snack for supper
n then ramble at bookstore, just looked aroud if there any nice book to read. i use to read tv guide book n fashion mag. but today, i found a magazine about ipod. really good n reasonable. i should buy it, but i dun want. haha..so i read over there n took note some useful links.
after half an hour i was there, i went back home n started writing this post (^^,) that was my story about 1st day of holiday. sound boring may be. wanna remind myself actually.

01.30.09
it’s not over…
yeah…today exam for this sem is over n less a month i’m going back to my hometown. \(^0^)/ Malaysia, wait 4 me k! hehehe…
but, even the exam is over, there is something else waiting 4 me to be done.
- kenkyu (last year thesis) ; still thinking what i’m going to do next spring.
- syukatsu (job-hunting) ; if i want but i’m still dunno. dun like going interview etc n seems to be a student is suit 4 me
so i wanna proceed lah… - preparation for going back home sweet home. omG, visa re-entry, souvenirs n so on. m(_ _)m
i hope so can manage well. no rush n no nasty. wish me luck k. (^_^)
01.25.09
oh gosh! a nightmare?

lately i really dun know why, bad dream haunted myself. this morning, after fajr (subuh) prayer, i fell asleep. quite sleepy though. i dreamt something bad thing happened to me. even i dun remember exactly what happened in my dream, i just wanna tell roughly.
here the story is;i went back home, in malaysia n met up with my family. what surprisingly happened is my family became distant n cold to me. (T_T) my dad scolded me because some reasons n my grandma really hated me. they wanna go away, n leave me alone. oh, come on man. what i’d done, huh?. i’m just came back from japan, dad. at that time, what came cross to my mind is: am i a bad son? become rude to family n so on. then, i woke up ’cause the handphone rang n i’d to answer it. actually i wanna continue sleeping, of course, to know the end of the story. hehehe… (what the heck?)
i’d also a bad dream yesterday, but i dun remember when it happened; b4 or after the subuh prayer. huhu.. i met with my younger sister in the dream. i was shocked at that time. my sister changed absolutely; became an elegant girl n money is on tip of fingers. may be it’s sound cool right? but, what made me tension is she became arrogant n lazy (like me? no no no…) >_< i tried to advise, even i’d scold her, to become good girl++ but, she make dunno jer… oh gosh, what happened to u? i really wanna cry at that time; is that ’cause of me? not a good bro, always nice to siblings, take care each others.
何だよ。。(-.ー;)
oh, i dunno what really happened to me. may be God wanna show n tell me something, or just a dream. i hope the second one; effect of exam’s pressure though. or may be i’m not a good guy enough. should think n reflect myself back.

01.21.09
max pressure

i wanna write a little bit even i’m busying myself with exam study, may be i’m facing max (maximum) pressure? a few days left b4 exam while there’re a lot to study. well u-know. i really jealous with my frenz from other universities who had finished exam early. some of them don’t have any paper though. oh come on. (>_<) why i dun be like them, in the seventh heaven.hehe…
astaghfirullah…what did i say. i should realize may be what God planned is better than i thought. hope God will give me strength to face all the challenges. (^_^) what i’d been thought; everything had been planned by Him, so no need to worry. what the result for next week exam was determined by God earlier. hihi… just do the best for it.
i’m going to seat exam starting next monday with 電気電子応用数学2/applied maths for e&e 2, 電気機器学2/electric machines 2 (tuesday), システム工学/system engineering (thursday) n the killer paper; 物理学A/physics A on friday. i hope can manage well n dun let other stuff control myself e.g mood (advice to myself). i dunno either can finish study b4 the exam start or not. hope so can. be cool man. i’m cool right? haha…
talking about study for exam, i remember what my maths teacher said during i was in form 3, if i’m not mistaken. she asked what the purpose of our study? just exam or the knowledge i.e ilmu? the niat @ nawaitu our study for. omoidashichatta...huhu. she said to all members of my class at that time;
if u all study for exam, u just passed the exam (at that time pmr), then u’ll forget what u studied when u proceed to form 4 n so on. but, if ur niat @ nawaitu of ur study is for the ilmu thing, u’ll get the ilmu, or fortunately both, pass in the exam too.
oh, really thanx cikgu. i must reflect myself back; for what i study for. may be it’s not too little too late. huhu (-_-; )
yosh…gambarou!!
So, when you feel like hope is gone
look inside you and be strong
and you’ll finally see the truth
that a hero lies in you

cool enough? (^^,)
01.14.09
u-know…


recently i don’t have any motivation to do works especially shiken benkyou (study 4 exam) even the exam just around the corner. should i find something to motivate myself? huhu…really dunno how. O God, help me…(-_-)
today i woke up a little bit late, again. i’ve to submit my lab experiment report today, before 1 p.m. i rushed to c.a.l.l lab to print out the report, a few minutes to 1 o’clock at that time. i really in hurry that time, OMG, can i stop the time for a while, so that i can submit the report b4 the time. at last, i managed to send it by hand to the in-charge sensei girigiri (barely in time). actually, i’d sent all the previous report barely in time too. oh, i thought that i can send b4 the time for the last report, unfortunately i can’t. oh no…! such a regret. (>_<)
then, i went to syokudo (cafeteria) for lunch. on the way, i met with my frenz n said i looked tension. am i? oh, may be. i’d a bowl of chikuwaten soba at syokudo, then went back home. i think i didn’t have a meal there for a month, ’cause almost all my class are after the afternoon break. (^_^)
actually i wanna study at library after that, but not kind of mood, so i canceled it. oh…what the heck. can anybody help curing my mood, plz….
lately, i use to listen korean songs, dunno why; especially ost of boys over flower korean version. t-max (paradise), ss501 (nae meoriga nabasseo) n shinee (stand by me) are the singers. hehe…try to listen them. may be u’ll fall for them too. hehe…hamattemasu.
tonight, i’m lucky ’cause my housemate made bbq chicken n also coslow (dunno how to spell it correctly, sorry) for dinner. it’s really appetizing n marvelous dinner. thanx dude.
i think i got a little bit motivation or can i say energy to study after a nice dinner. hahaha…
tomorrow i’m going to see my lab senior to ask about her research. i dunno which theme i’ll do for last year thesis; hope so i can decide soon. (-.-; ) i dunno either to work or continue my study after grad next year though.
何だ俺は。。

marvellous dinner.
p/s: dun forget to pray for palestinians n update ourselves about the issue, even we’re going to seat for exam. have a nice day.
01.05.09
new year…a new dimension (?)

happy new year
明けましておめでとうございます。
i think it’s not late for me to wish my dearest frenz n readers happy new year 2009, even today it’s the fifth day of ‘09. i hope we’ll try the best for this brand new story. i dun wanna write about this new year stuff ’cause i’d written about it in past post. huhu…
i’ve been lazy lately, so i try to think n create something unique or special for my post.
last friday, my frenz n i went to toyosu n aomi; just rambled around there, ’cause i’d not been there yet. after friday prayer, we rushed to toyosu first for lunch at surabaya restaurant. indonesian meals in a traditional styled restaurant made me feel hi-class enough (^^,) after having dusk sight-seeing there, three of us moved to aomi. we tried riding on cars n enjoyed some attractions at toyota motor showcase over there, besides window-shoping around venus fort. then, at night, we went to ikebukuro, walk around there n had our late dinner; may be i can say it’s our dinner+supper at saizeriya. haha…

a view from surabaya restaurant at toyosu
at that underground saizeriya restaurant, we had our last meals of the day while having chat about our life till now in japan; recall what we’d faced when the first time we’re here. most of us faced money probs at that time due to some reasons. my friend said that he had to borrowed money from others while the other one had to eat bread n drink pipe-water ’cause of that lacking money prob. how pity were they. m(T_T)m
how about me, then? alhamdulillah, i didn’t face that kind of prob ’cause i inherit my senpai’s house n no need to buy most of home appliances. besides that, i’d rented for sharing house, so the budget was not too much; compared to now though. (-.-;) just facing challenges to use to new environment. how lucky i was…
what happened in my frenz there, n some of the rests too, make me appreciate n grateful for what i have now. even i’d my own hardship, but till now the finance part is quite enough for me. praise be to God.
but, sometimes i feel very ‘cozy’ in this situation. am i in a comfortable zone? pleasure is everywhere n no need to worry about any loss n so on. just take easy what happened in surroundings. no need to push myself forward to ‘perform’ better n successfully. oh come on man! it makes me remain as myself in past. no progress, full of nothing, use to depend others, lack of interests n motivation n so on (*_*)
dulu zaman kurushi….skang zaman gucci
(it was hard time, but now is gucci time a.k.a luxury)
do i need something to push myself on? for instance, a motivation. i think i need some. but, how? waiting somebody (or something) to come n cheer me up. may be nobody come till i cheer myself up first. i must find something to motivate me; ’cause yaruki ga nai (have no motivation/enthusiasm) lately, even exam just around the corner. huhu…or should i be strict to myself (>_<) 人に優しく、自分に厳しく (be gentle to others, be strict to myself)
just sort of mumbles…till next post. see ya..





